Strange Hallowed Eve's things

Oct 30, 2008 at 8:22 AM
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It's cold and dark in the mornings now. I opened my eyes briefly in the wee hours and was momentarily startled by a dark figure floating above and slightly away from me. It only had an upper body, and it wore a hat. It looked like the Grim Reaper, actually.

If I were superstitious, I might come to the conclusion it was an "Aswang", a disembodied vampire of Filipino legend, which leaves its lower body on unsalted coconut tree stumps while it flies about in the night in search of food. Food could be small animals, lost children, or in another legend, the unborned fetus within a pregnant woman (I won't go into details). Or, I could just believe it's Death come to see if I'm doubting myself and ready for the "next emanation" (a Star Trek thing).

Alas, it was my black sweatshirt hanging beneath my Bahamas hat. Our four-poster bed has turned into a wardrobe due to the lack of closet space.

Anyway I've got two cats sleeping with and thereby protecting me, Egyptian religion-style. I've touched Death, and been close, I think, a few times. I don't need to see dark figures to feel its presence hovering about at any given moment. I respect it, and still don't quite know if my neural energy will just leave my body to be part of the collective unconcious or what (ok, a bit of transcendentalism hanging on from high school and some Star Trek mixed in), maybe reincarnate or go to join a large, divine (I subliminally spelled "diving" until I caught the error) deity. That's right, 2.5 years of pondering this and I just don't know. I don't think I'll be going up to meet a bearded blond guy with blue eyes wearing white robes, and St. Peter at the pearly gates, but I could be wrong there too.

Maybe I'll just hover about all the people I want to haunt...that would be the most fun.

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I think: There is a higher energy, I don't see it like a physical uplifting. More of a spirit release from your body. I like the idea of haunting your loved ones. It comforts me to think I feel the ancestors around me. I had a near death experience as a child that was very realistic. I think it has formed my opinion a little. Bible stories are quaint stories about extraordinary people. At best, models for humanity & cautionary tales. I do believe in guardians & kharma. I think you have a good one. I may be hypersensitive. I have also felt the dark figure at the side of the bed urging you to just stop fighting. Not today Paloma!

Traditional heaven sounds boring.

Verrry Halloweenish. I'm actually going to a Halloween party tomorrow night, in Menlo Park no less, whaddya thinka that? And, are you moving, or did you move, or what?

We've discussed that near-death thing, but I still wonder if that's like a weird remnant reaction of our brains, like being in an extended twilight? But there's no scientific explanation, of course. Hmm. Like I said, it's all Star Trekky and stuff.

Symphony and Halloween, what fun! House hunting (to buy) just started, but it's tenuous due to the husband's travel schedule. Aiming to be out by the end of the year, preferably sooner. Looking in Carlsbad/Oceanside/North San Diego County.

I'm looking forward to not moving again for a long, long time, and to actually getting to decorate and (possibly) buy new furniture. Mostly, I love to garden, and I can't wait to create a raging, vibrant, Matt Jamesian landscape (he, of the UK series "The City Gardener").

Yeah, a garden.... in Santa Clara I had this very large bed of iris, all of the light blue color, extending along the garage wall and when they bloomed it looked like van gogh out there. That's the only problem with this renting lifestyle.... a few pots of basil out on the balcony don't quite do it.

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